de diva 107 quandary

for the diva( http://iamthedivaczt.blogspot.nl/)
this week there was a new pattern named : Quandary.
I made this one first:

 but then I saw on facebook this line:
It's helpful to let go of the outcome of your piece, and set your intention on each pen stroke. By placing each mark on your page deliberately, you may find that zen like mood easier. Let go of creating "Art" and let the process be your focus.

and I thought... yes that is exactly bothers me the most in al of my work...
to much art and to litle zen....
so I tryed again and this is the outcome:

In al in all honesty I must say that this pattern is not giving me much Zen...
every time I start with it and its ok, but on the way I lose it and then I get all worked up and frustrated.
Its not good I no it but what can I do about it?

I think the first one is much more me but than ... that is what I CAN do and I will learn more to try to do it different.